THIS IS NOT A LOVE POEM

This is not a love poem.

I won’t be talking about slow dancing and romancing

Eyes prancing the scope of your body

Glancing the flesh that stole my vision

Your breath to speech; vocal ammunition

Fired into my soul leaving me in critical condition

This is not a lover’s rendition of 80s blues or Kenny G on a track

His lips fondling the saxophone like yours on the trail of my back

I won’t tell you in this poem that cupid made me his mark

And shot me from behind so I can’t define this feeling of your tongue grazing my arc

This is not a love poem for sweethearts to recite

Late at night or broad day light

When the darkness or sunlight form a back drop to emotional flight

When senses of wrong get lost in right

This is not a love poem to ignite the flame of romances past

To bring fast to mind first kisses and the subsequent amassed

The last stroke of his hand gentle on your cheek

Heart palpitations electrifying your bones in a manner unique

You’re weak from his touch and everything he does

She’s your butterfly who stings like a bee when you hear her buzz.

This is not a love poem for singles covet

Wishing for someone to serve breakfast trays of orange juice and omelets

Solos are played out so now’s the time for a duet

The sunset’s losing its beauty because you watch it alone

This is not a love poem to make the broken hearted groan

Their sentiments are not too far from my own

You see, my last love poem never got read

I slit my thoughts to strips and no one watched as the words bled

So I vowed never again, never in the name of love will my ink be shed

This is not a love poem; let it be known.

Let it be heard.

WHAT IFs

What if I just showed up at your door?

Heart on my sleeve, pride crouched down to the floor

Hope in each knock and when you opened up, your dreams in my eyes were all you saw

Plus just a few more and I could ever so clearly see mine in yours

What if words needn’t be spoken so the silence needn’t be broken?

Our lips shut closed but our hearts remain widely open

What if you grazed my hand as a token of emotion?

Of this heartbreaking separation we’d been forcibly soaked in

What if you managed my name in a soft tender whisper?

And yours escaped mine innocently like a kitten’s purr

What then would you prefer when feelings begin to naturally stir?

That I leave or come back to love, much deeper than we ever were?

My request is simple;

Be mine while I be yours, let us be a happy people.

What if we gained some closure to this our rollercoaster?

Then towards you I took the first step closer?

What if my every word got transferred through the passion that we weigh?

And all you heard without a doubt was what I couldn’t say?

What if our feet should meet somewhere in the middle

And the rest of us would greet prior our familiar cradle

If the sigh we exclaim should relieve pressures in my brain

Would it be so insane if the pleasure we gained would forever remain?

What if God himself should come down to bless our union?

And restored the faith of an aching man and woman.

I’ll lend more than my hand just so you comprehend the extent of this love I have for you

That it not be abused or misconstrued because I choose to lay it all down for you

See, our idea of love and love’s ideas may sometimes vary

But we’ve engaged them so surely at some point the two must marry

What if these whats ifs were the first move to a second chance

Would you walk away or shall we dance?

DEAR JOHN

Baby I told you outright to treat me right or I was out like you wouldn't believe
You must've seen my naïve heart on my sleeve for you to conceive the thought that I was never gonna leave
Till you come home to this Dear John letter
This you could've done better letter
Baby, you just put a full stop to our together forever letter.

You know how hard this is for me given how much I am a romantic
And you know me to stick through whatever regardless of how frantic
But I just can't take it anymore
I can't fake it anymore
The thought of being without you lets fear sting in my heart but you're piercing that heart and I won't let you stake it anymore.
My knees bow down to the floor,
I'm slowly losing my will to live
Don't you know I need you me amour?
But you'd rather see me walk out that door
Instead of holding me back so we work out that flaw
Why wait unsure of us yet ready to thrust your fists up when another man secures what should've been yours?
Baby my wait has outrun its course.

Remember when our love was a force to be reckoned with?
Standing sturdy and daring anyone to second it
I mean we beckoned sunshine in the midst of hurricanes and rainbows would appear
And somehow here I am, in hand a farewell letter smudged from each dropping tear
In the rear I can almost hear the teasing giggles boos and jeers
Everybody plays the fool and it looks like I won the Act of the Year.

I'm halfway through this letter riddled with dismay
If only my emotions could set that door in motion and have you march in begging me to stay
Praying that you barge, rip this letter apart and delay this getaway
Better yet, erase this day, toss away the wilted bouquet of yesterday and start anew today.

I want to love nobody but you.

Call you baby while we seize moments in the sheets holding you in where no one else but our babies would pass through
I want this body to be yours and have only you enjoy the view
And this feels too strong for you not to feels it too
It it's true and you do why don't you let me know?
Let is show, let us grow, let's not blow this baby, don't let me go.
But the tears flow down 'cause I'm about to end this Dear John letter,
This you could've done better letter
And you're still a no-show.

For the first time I mean it when I conclude a letter with Sincerely Yours
Faithfully Yours
Truthfully Yours,

Your Loss.

SCORNED

See I gave him the truth of me

But he blinded his truth from me and chose to deceive

And though life has countless times cleansed me with second chances

Forgiveness from me he would never receive.

So now I hate men

Yes, I hate them all.

Because one cracked my skull and stirred my brains

Then reached into my wounds and coiled my veins

So all of them must take the fall.

Don’t dare tell me not to be bitter

I tasted the best of what I thought could only get sweeter

Liter after liter of sweetness slapped from my tongue

Slapped so hard it left my ears ringing

Ringing unlike my phone

Clinging unlike his hold

Stinging like the pain his absence is bringing

I’m screaming in madness with the voice that should be singing.

Don’t f**ken ask me not to be scorned

I’m pissed as hell for me, our two girls and boy never born

They’re stuck in the darkness before dawn

How the f*ck would they see the light

Without him to turn the switch on?

The blazes of hell could never match my fury

I have stacked my hands with spears to pierce their hearts

And I won’t bother to deny it to the jury.

They will pay; they all will pay duly

For I hate them, I hate them truly.

I have targeted them all one by one

And I won’t rest till they’re all done and gone

I’ve held vengeance prisoner and alongside dug my grave

I will enslave them before I kill them

I will slay all who stand in my way

No one is safe.

I SEE YOU

I see you.

In the still of the night when silence of your absence grips me, the thought of you trips me and I begin to see you in the times past and that which lies ahead
I see you in the scheme of circumstances when dreams of you haunt me till i wake and loneliness seems to hold me hostage in my bed.

I draw myself further from you but in my reflection I still see you and assume you are near
Objects in mirrors aren't always closer than they appear because I reach out to touch you and all I feel is thin air and a tear
Falling upon my cheek where your hands once grazed, I'm amazed I feel you more and once again you are here.
I see you.

I shut my eyes tight so I wouldn't but the vision only gets clearer
I sense your presence in every sense so intense
I'm convinced you've been sent to create a system error.
Oblivious to the reality that I shouldn't, I see you, the flower girl and the ring bearer
The bridesmaids and grooms men stand in a file while father takes me down the aisle, my face imprinted with a smile seeing you in forever.

I refuse to believe you're not the muse musician's abuse because I see you in every song that I can't help but sing along to
Words, hues combined in a lines paint a different view of you so I know this to be true
Why then do you deny to be being used when my playlist suddenly resembles a slideshow of you?

I see you.

When I stare up the night's skies and stars twinkle down like a sight for sore eyes and in each ray of light, I too see you in sunrise
In every breath and in every thought
In truths, unknowns and in wherever the middle lies
I see you in everything that is within and without, in everything found and everything sought.

I see you.

Do you see me?