UNORDINARY FRIENDS

Unconsciously we’ve built that kind of bond shallow minds constantly fail to conceive

They were never made to but the great minds that do work hard to achieve it

They thieve at moments of their lives trying to sieve through the grains of people

And they wonder why compared to us, they come up with nothing but dust

Compared to us nothing quite as robust as the trust between two souls of one mind

We’re best of friends… best of the unordinary kind.

The relationship hard to find between chromosome X and XY but nothing quite as cumbersome

Maybe complicated sometimes but the thunderstorms come down as a drizzle

when we already dove into a sea of simplicity and hand in hand riding high on its waves.

Conversational lovers we are

Tumbling under sheets of words and ink

It was never really our intention to make invincible our sexual tension

Perhaps it was he or I who may have forgotten to mention it during our serial conversations of everything and nothings

That makes something out of midnight other than the clock striking twelve with me losing my slippers and a the carriage turning into a pumpkin

I have never had to be anything other than my tattered self with him.

Maybe because he’s just as shattered as me and shreds of our scattered selves sleep upon the same floor

And flatter the seemingly pretty walls that overlook us.

Birds of the same feather

Colorful and beautiful but ruffled altogether

Tangled until we bind

We’re best of friends… best of the unordinary kind.

Men have knocked upon my door and excused themselves in no time

‘Cause despite their best efforts to fill in the blanks they never could make it rhyme

Their profound diction and wordy precision regardless of how honest

Was never enough when effortlessly we could freestyle a thousand sonnets

Somewhere along the line I made you my pen

And I moved you to write beautiful poetry of pure love and unordinary friends

Till you got me in every sense and I you but you were never really mine

Afterall we are just friends, although the best of the unordinary kind.

I have often hoped for more

And more would be an epic folklore

But we may never stand together before an altar

And slide gold bands down each other’s fingers

However, the intensity of our forever simply lingers over the melodies of our favorite singers

As we make memorable and precious a lonely bench by just sitting and enjoying each other’s company there.

And in this moment I could lose all of the world, leave it all behind

Because the world is full of the ordinary and we’re a long way from its kind.

LOVESTRUCK

I sit stark naked in the dark waiting on inspiration to spark

I’m tearing my thoughts apart in a mental shark attack

Hoping to embark on a journey that puts my reality on a gurney

Only to be resuscitated when I need it back.

My past and future fade to black while I stay searching strings of things

It’s like I’m running a marathon against springs;

I’m always snapping back to you.

You who stars in every episode of my playwritings

 All one million of them till I fix you into dark skies as night lightings

And you have never looked so beautiful.

Your shine has never felt so dutiful engulfing me in its radiance;

It’s you who leaves me delightful even from a distance.

It’s always you who sight’s full of great things done and the greater yet to come

Your passion that never succumbs when challenges drum

Your modesty that sits above your ego is the body that links the path of where you’re going to that which you’re from like two opposable thumbs

I’m walking right beside you so there’ll be no need fill the road with crumbs

Just forgive my shrieking voice when I start to hum.

…But I’m with you.

You who bore to me your beliefs, fears and defects

And danced with me despite my faults without a halt

You, with whom the absolute was derived from two imperfects

I see a man whose choices weigh a ton

Never a broken nor uncertain man but he whose empire stands undone

I’m asked why I love you, why I call you “The One”

Above all of mothers’ sons

Why I choose you.

But they haven’t seen extraordinary

No, they haven’t met us yet

They may have been in contact with a carbon copy

Or from a distance familiarized with our silhouette.

Let them come up close and see we’re exquisite

Sublime, magnificent in a way that the normal can’t help but anxiously quiz it

We’re desirable like milk-bathed skin

Surreal yet completely genuine

It’s this love we’re in

That thin thread between insanity and actuality on which we tread

Give us Lord our daily bread and together; body, heart and head, we are fed.

This love that guides us to what resides on the other side of distant hills

That fills our souls on adventurous rides and heart-thumping thrills

You’re that sentiment that keeps ink to my quill

Yes I love you, always have…always will.

There's a burn inside my chest that gets my insides to churn.

A passion that turns me towards a path that I yearn

I am loved and I love in return.

WHAT IFs

What if I just showed up at your door?

Heart on my sleeve, pride crouched down to the floor

Hope in each knock and when you opened up, your dreams in my eyes were all you saw

Plus just a few more and I could ever so clearly see mine in yours

What if words needn’t be spoken so the silence needn’t be broken?

Our lips shut closed but our hearts remain widely open

What if you grazed my hand as a token of emotion?

Of this heartbreaking separation we’d been forcibly soaked in

What if you managed my name in a soft tender whisper?

And yours escaped mine innocently like a kitten’s purr

What then would you prefer when feelings begin to naturally stir?

That I leave or come back to love, much deeper than we ever were?

My request is simple;

Be mine while I be yours, let us be a happy people.

What if we gained some closure to this our rollercoaster?

Then towards you I took the first step closer?

What if my every word got transferred through the passion that we weigh?

And all you heard without a doubt was what I couldn’t say?

What if our feet should meet somewhere in the middle

And the rest of us would greet prior our familiar cradle

If the sigh we exclaim should relieve pressures in my brain

Would it be so insane if the pleasure we gained would forever remain?

What if God himself should come down to bless our union?

And restored the faith of an aching man and woman.

I’ll lend more than my hand just so you comprehend the extent of this love I have for you

That it not be abused or misconstrued because I choose to lay it all down for you

See, our idea of love and love’s ideas may sometimes vary

But we’ve engaged them so surely at some point the two must marry

What if these whats ifs were the first move to a second chance

Would you walk away or shall we dance?

UNKNOWN

I sat knees folded on the edge of my bed
On the verge of crying out thoughts unsaid
Before me he kneels; his hands caught in mine
Eyes meet eyes, lips in line
The silence was all we heard.
We're about to break up or make up
Or lie in the familiarity we found in between
I saw in him the love and pain I felt in me
Apologetic over a dirty slate we both must wipe clean
He doesn't know how to, I can't seem to show him.
He spoke in whispers, the words barely leaving his mouth
But like a sixth sense I heard them even before they came out
He's saying goodbye without letting me go
I'm walking away greeting him hello.

In the middle we sit, together uncertain
The companionship is bliss amidst the hurting
If we're to leave here with nothing or all
Do we rise or fall beyond the curtain call?

We're a long road from the first kiss
And this feel of his lips on mine could be the last
Lest we dare to dare another genesis.
Leave us be or let us be more
Friends at heart, lovers at soul
Strangers in no place but the before.
Our embrace holds too tightly to tell
A hearty welcome or an agonizing farewell?

DEAR JOHN

Baby I told you outright to treat me right or I was out like you wouldn't believe
You must've seen my naïve heart on my sleeve for you to conceive the thought that I was never gonna leave
Till you come home to this Dear John letter
This you could've done better letter
Baby, you just put a full stop to our together forever letter.

You know how hard this is for me given how much I am a romantic
And you know me to stick through whatever regardless of how frantic
But I just can't take it anymore
I can't fake it anymore
The thought of being without you lets fear sting in my heart but you're piercing that heart and I won't let you stake it anymore.
My knees bow down to the floor,
I'm slowly losing my will to live
Don't you know I need you me amour?
But you'd rather see me walk out that door
Instead of holding me back so we work out that flaw
Why wait unsure of us yet ready to thrust your fists up when another man secures what should've been yours?
Baby my wait has outrun its course.

Remember when our love was a force to be reckoned with?
Standing sturdy and daring anyone to second it
I mean we beckoned sunshine in the midst of hurricanes and rainbows would appear
And somehow here I am, in hand a farewell letter smudged from each dropping tear
In the rear I can almost hear the teasing giggles boos and jeers
Everybody plays the fool and it looks like I won the Act of the Year.

I'm halfway through this letter riddled with dismay
If only my emotions could set that door in motion and have you march in begging me to stay
Praying that you barge, rip this letter apart and delay this getaway
Better yet, erase this day, toss away the wilted bouquet of yesterday and start anew today.

I want to love nobody but you.

Call you baby while we seize moments in the sheets holding you in where no one else but our babies would pass through
I want this body to be yours and have only you enjoy the view
And this feels too strong for you not to feels it too
It it's true and you do why don't you let me know?
Let is show, let us grow, let's not blow this baby, don't let me go.
But the tears flow down 'cause I'm about to end this Dear John letter,
This you could've done better letter
And you're still a no-show.

For the first time I mean it when I conclude a letter with Sincerely Yours
Faithfully Yours
Truthfully Yours,

Your Loss.

SCORNED

See I gave him the truth of me

But he blinded his truth from me and chose to deceive

And though life has countless times cleansed me with second chances

Forgiveness from me he would never receive.

So now I hate men

Yes, I hate them all.

Because one cracked my skull and stirred my brains

Then reached into my wounds and coiled my veins

So all of them must take the fall.

Don’t dare tell me not to be bitter

I tasted the best of what I thought could only get sweeter

Liter after liter of sweetness slapped from my tongue

Slapped so hard it left my ears ringing

Ringing unlike my phone

Clinging unlike his hold

Stinging like the pain his absence is bringing

I’m screaming in madness with the voice that should be singing.

Don’t f**ken ask me not to be scorned

I’m pissed as hell for me, our two girls and boy never born

They’re stuck in the darkness before dawn

How the f*ck would they see the light

Without him to turn the switch on?

The blazes of hell could never match my fury

I have stacked my hands with spears to pierce their hearts

And I won’t bother to deny it to the jury.

They will pay; they all will pay duly

For I hate them, I hate them truly.

I have targeted them all one by one

And I won’t rest till they’re all done and gone

I’ve held vengeance prisoner and alongside dug my grave

I will enslave them before I kill them

I will slay all who stand in my way

No one is safe.